I am such an all or nothing person - in every aspect of my life. I need to re-lose 40 to 50 pounds that I gained after the whole anorexia intervention thing. This time I am going to attempt to do it healthy. I am so tired of weight loss occupying my mind nearly 100% of the time. You know what I mean? If you are still reading this – then you probably do. Weight loss thoughts start in the morning – typically in the shower – yuck – the naked body, then usually weighing (if I decide to punish myself), then getting dressed (yep – here comes a yelling, throwing clothes around the house, screaming, sweating fit), then throughout the day there are issues with food, comparison with others, thinking about diets, clothing clinging to your body, feeling insecure, wishing you had lost weight, wondering how you could lose weight, feeling guilty, eating, feeling even more guilty, feeling ugly, thinking about dieting even more, being tired, NOT feeling like working out, blah, blah, blah . . . Sound familiar? That is a typical day – ONE DAY. Exhausting. I am tired of it. No more of this shit.
So, what has worked in the past is letting my OCD kick in - by using every compulsive bone in my body. I write down everything that goes in my body, I blog everything, I take a picture of myself every single day, and now I have youtube and keek. I need accountability. I am also celeb crazy – yes – it is like I am 13 years old – but it works. I set daily goals. I set weekly goals . I typically blog about it all. Aren’t y’all lucky? What works for you?
